Author: chinagirl
Posted: Wed Jun 22, 2011 7:00 pm
Welcome to the forum…thanks for talking about your story. Everyone here understands what you’ve gone through, turning into someone you aren’t due to drugs.
I’m glad you told your sub dr about smoking pot. I know that many addiction therapists understand harm reduction and that getting onto Sub is a great first step for you. I’ve never made my opinion of smoking weed a secret but you have told your Sub dr and the rest of how you deal with that is up to you and your Sub dr. You didn’t say if you plan to quit smoking pot but you did say you weren’t "clean" yet so I am assuming your plan is to stop smoking it. Personally I don’t think addicts should be taking other mood altering drugs unless they are prescribed by a physician and their Sub dr is aware of all medications a patient is on…but that is only my opinion.
Good job getting onto Sub "legally" and I hope you have a good therapist to help you find the skills needed to deal with life without drugs. I’ve said this before, too, but stopping drugs is the first part, getting into a positive recovery is the rest of it…It’s pretty hard to to alone. What I’ve learned that has helped me initially get 5 years clean and sober, and now 3 years has been to surround myself with people who have what I want in recovery, and to not rely on my own thinking without someone very trustworthy and much wiser than me to help bounce things off of. I have to distrust my own thinking because my own thinking gets me into trouble. That doesn’t mean I can’t think for myself, or make good decisions or any of that, it just means I really do need to get a reality check much of the time…and when I do that my life overall is a lot better.
Thanks again for sharing your story and let us know how things are going for you…
Good luck with getting stabilized on Sub.
