Author: christin
Posted: Tue Jun 21, 2011 9:41 am
I’ve been on Suboxone since July of 2009 (after relapsing after a short stint on it at the beginning of 2009). Some of you may remember me from my previous posts, several of which concerned decreasing my Suboxone dose.
I’m currently at .5mg and have been here for about two weeks now. For me, every decrease (from 20mg – 1mg) has not come without some w/d — some decreases worse than others of course. And, it’s not been just physical. I’ve been at .5mg before and have ended up returning to 4mg (even 6mg at one time) because of cravings. So far, this time the cravings have been extremely minimal. That is HUGE for me. In fact, it was the cravings and the head-stuff ("head stuff" is code for wanting to stick a gun to my head and pull the trigger) that spurred me to get back on Suboxone after I had successfully detoxed (physically) from oxys in May of 2009.
Anyway, I had gotten over the w/d from my drop from 1mg to .5mg. Then, the past couple of days have brought back the w/d, not bad… but I’m feeling it. I know that it’s due to the inaccuracy of my dosing. So, I finally started the liquid method this morning. Instead of taking one of my quartered tablets (and trying to lick the dust from the pill splitter), I dissolved a 2mg tablet in 2 tsps of water. I took 1/4 tsp this morning (which eventually relieved the w/d symptoms that I woke with). It’s my hope that using the liquid method to dose twice a day will alleviate the kind of anxiety, irritability, and restlessness that I had last night and that I won’t wake in withdrawal as I did this morning. Otherwise, I’m afraid that my summer will be so busy (my son’s graduation, etc) that I will increase my dose simply because I can’t keep feeling like crap and being lethargic (let alone living in the bathroom) and still do what I need to do at work and for my family.
I would appreciate any and all support that I can get in this endeavor. My hope is to be Sub-free by end of summer. That’s just a goal, not a deadline. Everyone on this forum always has been very supportive. I appreciate that. I’ve been encouraged by many of the posts that I’ve read here.
Thanks as always!
