Author: Romeo
Posted: Mon Nov 21, 2011 1:53 am
Hey wu,
Don’t, for a minute, think that you’re the only one with issues. You’re not an oddball, you’re not a screw up, you are an addict, you are a member of the human race and you have some "mental issues" that you need to address…..welcome to the club, there’s a shit load of us in the same boat you’re in.
I suffer from OCD tendencies, I deal with anxiety on a daily basis…..it sucks, but it’s how God built me and I’m learning how to live with it. Truth be told, my obsessive behavior is a major bonus in my occupation. A big part of my job is problem solving and my obsessive nature allows me to COMPLETELY focus on the problem at hand. I’ll run through a million scenarios mentally, I’ll narrow the list down to the top two or three then I see if they work. I do all of this in a matter of minutes while it takes my co-workers considerably longer to perform the same tasks. Because of my OCD, I have steadily moved up the ladder of success at work and I have a kick ass job. OCD doesn’t have to be all bad.
Anxiety, on the other hand, is more of a challenge. I haven’t found many bonuses with having anxiety so I’ve learned simple techniques to fight it. Focusing on your breathing is a real simple one. Learning to not overanalyze certain things lessens my anxiety. Learning acceptance has lessened my anxiety.
Recovery is a learning process. We learn about ourselves. Some of the things we learn about ourselves scares the crap out of us, then we learn how to deal with it. Some of the things we learn about ourselves are great, but we tend to minimize those……..bad, bad, bad!!! Like my signature says, Our Character Defects Do NOT Define Who We Are. For too long, I let my character defects define who I was. How crazy is that……my character defects make up about 5% of who I am and I was letting them define 99% of who I was. I don’t do that anymore.
This stuff didn’t happen for me overnight, my recovery has been a long path, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lastly, remember to Be Kind To Yourself.
