Author: valleygirl
Posted: Mon Jul 11, 2011 1:57 pm
Hello Everyone…Day 23 no subs here. I have been doing fairly decent, but really kind of had it this morning. I have been waking up at 5am every day just FULL of anxiety, not wanting to face day, etc for the last week or so. It gets better as I go on, but today I am having trouble snapping out of it. I think it’s because I am out of clonidine. I go back to dr tomorrow, and will get some then, but I honestly feel like sleep/wake up was better a week ago before I ran out.
I guess I am just getting a little down as to the length of this withdrawal. I guess I expected to see huge improvements each week, and from 2 weeks-3 weeks it didn’t appear to be that much difference. Again, I am not on the clonidine, since last Saturday so maybe that is why anxiety has returned so fierce. I am probably expecting too much from myself seeing that I dropped 3 meds in a month, and am pregnant, but it really beats me down at times. I read through some of the oh-so-encouraging posts on here where people have felt like it would never end, then came out on the other side.
I can deal with tiredness, etc., but it’s the sheer panic that I am waking up with that really has me perplexed. Then this lingering dread that it will never end…I know it passes, and tell myself when I am going through it that it will, but still this mental game is just tough at times. I am sorry for being negative, as I am soooo very grateful to be through the acute part…but I guess I am just a little discouraged today, and wouldn’t be honest if I didn’t reach out. Any thoughts as to what I could be doing different? Thank you for reading and any replies are certainly welcome!!!
