Author: Romeo
Posted: Wed Jul 06, 2011 12:59 pm
Oh setmefree, thank you SOOOOO much for posting what you just did. #1—I am incredibly happy and excited for you. I know how you’ve struggled. I know how those past issues of yours have torn you up inside and I am SOOOO very, very proud of you for making the decision to try one-on-one counseling to try and address those issues AND that it’s helping you. I can’t find the words to tell you exactly how crazy proud and happy I am for you. You just made my day!!
#2—I’ve been in a funk for a day and a half. I’ve been being encouraged to start writing on my steps and I’ve been resisting. I’ve been telling people that God will let me know when it’s my time to start on my steps, well, He gave me more than a couple of "hints" that it was my time to start my steps, but I’m still scared as hell at the prospect of cracking my head open, once again, and reviewing all of my past. As you know, I’ve already done the one-on-one counseling, but I’ve never worked a 12 step program…..didn’t know what the hell the 12 step program was……now that I know, it’s really been starting to mess with me because I don’t want to dredge up the past. I’m terrified of it. Honestly, I was almost to the point of tears today because I was worrying so much about it. I’m so worried about what tomorrow will bring, and the next day and the next day…..I need to get my ass in today and deal with today and let the future unfold as it will. Anyway, reading about how successful you’ve been with your counselor was the final "hint" that I needed that I need to get going on my step work. I actually wrote on the very first question of the very first step last night, it wasn’t bad at all, but I had already kind of changed my mind about doing anymore……until I read your FABULOUS post!!
Thanks for being so brave and sharing your story.
