Author: amber4.14.11
Posted: Mon Nov 21, 2011 11:42 pm
Ive been pondering lately, if I ever want to be off suboxone…….I’m scared to try for more than one reason. I know I’ll be able to be on a lower dose, but the thought of totally coming off is way too scary to think about.
I had been on different pain pills/opiates for over ten yrs, when I finally had enough and wanted to stop "the madness" as I call it. The first few times I tried cold turkey and on my own completely, were absolute failures as I have written about before; thats when I had the siezures.
The thing is, my addiction got worse every time I went back or gave up. Ive done so good since being on suboxone, 7 months now, I haven’t had one slip.
I do have legitimate pain issues, Im a construction worker, and Ive done it for 12 yrs now. Ive had two terrible auto accidents, fell 15 to the concrete once, and numerous other injuries from work.
I would hate to go off suboxone, and back on to the meds agian. Ive done some kind of drug since the age of 15. This is BY FAR the longest I have gone without being in "active addiction"
My doctor hasn’t really said anything about going off or tapering. He knows all of my pain issues. I can honestly say I feel better on the suboxone than I EVER did on anything else, pain wise.
Its almost like all the other crap made me hurt worse, becuase my brain was telling me it wanted more drugs.
I dont know if I’ll ever be ready. Ive had people tell me "you just know" when/if your ready.
My addiction therapist says not to obcess about it becuase it’s unhealthy. Sometimes I cant help it. Some members in my family are always asking when Im going to go off of it. I usually say when Im ready, or the doc says at least a year before we even discuss it. the doc also told me once that he makes people come up with 3 POSITIVE reasons for tapering before they can start.
negative examples are; i cant afford it, I wanna be totally clean, Im tired of having a crutch.
He wouldn’t give a positive example…..lol
Just wanted to throw that out there. Like a fishing line, see if anyone bites……..ha ha ah
Have a good nite friends 
