Author: tearj3rker
Posted: Fri Jun 17, 2011 1:26 am
Congrats Lenticular.
I’m back on Suboxone now after a massive relapse some time ago. But I clearly remember myself that around day 12-13 I started to feel the intensity receding, and the feeling that came with that was profoundly liberating and positive. It feels great to turn the corner, and see some light at the end of the tunnel.
I don’t want to discount the struggle you’ve been through thus far, because the detox is by far the most physically intense draining part of early recovery. But the real challenge comes from now. You will no doubt have moments where you wish you could have just one pill of suboxone. You will have your moments where you will desire to get back on your drug of choice.
Just remember where it will lead you – back on Suboxone – and remember the feeling you’ve endured. Keep a snapshot of the pain in your mind, of the sweaty bed linen and the teary eyes, the insomnia, the diahrrea. Call on it whenever these moments of temptation come about.
I highly suggest you book to see a counsellor weekly or fortnightly. It really helps. And try out the various support groups and find one that works for you. Live "pillow to pillow". From the moment you wake to the moment you put your head on your pillow without using is your daily victory.
Good luck! And keep posting here, especially if you find yourself going through a rough patch.
Congrats again, and cherish your recovery.
